Beyond Disability

FROM THE FOUNDER…

You know its not the crap that happens to us in life that defines us, its what we do with that crap. I always try to turn it into a positive. Ohhh… I feel the pain first and go through the emotions of whatever has smashed me and I strive to be an OVERCOMER! There is no other option.

I had a Basal Cell Carcinoma cut out of my chest, 5 years later one from my forehead. Then recently a penetrating BCC from my nose. The mistake I made was the tiny spot that would bleed on my nose had been there 3 years. I did have it frozen off however it grew back. I recently learnt that freezing BCC only has a 30% success rate. I then went back a year later… I dawdled  into the surgery to have my regular skin check and said I don’t think the freezing worked, it’s still bleeding. Der!!! (80’s chick) I then tried the prescription cream and applied it for 6 weeks which left my nose sore and ulcerated.

Long story short… I should have had  it cut out 3 years before I did.

I discovered something about myself two weeks ago on the surgery table. I’m not as tough as I thought. I said “No don’t worry, local is fine, I’ll  be right”… I in fact hyperventilated on the table and found the whole experience traumatic. I should have had a general anaesthetic with a plastic surgeon. My skin specialist did give me the option. But, I put myself second. I’m so annoyed at my lack of self care in that moment. I wouldn’t of let my daughters or friends go through what I did, surely I count too.

So beyond this pain and vulnerability I am grateful for a chance to start to truly adopt  self care. Compassion for myself. Not to have to put myself through trauma because I expect that I have to be tougher than other people and I in some ways I wore that like  a badge.

I will also take my hideous experience and advocate and nag to anyone that’s wants to listen to go have a skin check, check your mates back, stay safe in the sun. What a great opportunity I have to share my story and encourage others to stay safe in the sun.Stop putting yourself last, you are worthy and precious too.

Love yourself back, Mate x

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